| | just a quick update on my life and things in general
1.) i'm gonna have trouble getting used to this new xanga setup especially since i haven't been using it much
2.)
i've had so many new things to say but not anymore. it's either i
forget, i stop caring, or something that goes wrong somehow ends up
turning good.
3.) so here it goes. St. Paul the Apostle 2000, St. Peter's Preparatory 2004, Rutgers College - SCILS Affiliation 2008.
i'm graduating in 4 days and i'm friggin hyped. i can't stand school
anymore and i just want it to end. i cannot wait to start working
full-time, making that money, and feeling the responsibility of being
an adult.
4.) my last official relationship was in 2003. the old
me would be stressed as shit about it but the current me does not give
much a shit. as nice as a relationship would sound, my primary concern
is making that money. i don't want my feelings to take over me anymore.
as of now, this is the order of my priorities in life from highest to
lowest: my humanity > my financial desires > my semi-distant (10
years min) future > my love life > old age > things of the
past that i just want to forget.
5.) i performed for the first time with a dance crew today. i am a member of SOUL'D.
it's a much different dance scene than that done at cotillions/debuts
and man i had so much hype while dancing. i loved it. even though i
made one crucial noticaeable i know that i want to keep dancing in the
future.
6.) this past week really hit me in terms of my emo level.
a.) i've been spoonfed my whole life and others helped me realize i can't be anymore.
b.) i'm too negative to the point where i don't even give up anymore, i just don't try.
c.)
i was hit w/ a realization/assumption that ppl are slowly giving less
of a shit about me (i felt different in high school. i felt quite
admired/loved. nearing the end of college allowed me to realize that
feeling is fading and i think it's cuz i haven't been making the
attempt of keeping in touch w/ people).
d.) 7-8 years since it
began and it depresses the shit outta me (not really depresses but it
kills any possibility of positive energy. for life).
e.) my college degree/ management status feels like such a waste.
f.) i have my own voice and i don't even use it (when sober).
g.) i'm better behind a computer.
h.) i assume too damn much and i'm usually wrong anyway. i really should start 'listening' to others.
i.) i can't rely on others all the time. i have to make that step to do things on my own.
7.) i've never felt so unwilling to drive and chill these days. THESE GAS PRICES ARE FUCKING RIDICULOUS! FUCK THE AMERICAN ECONOMY.
8.) the end.
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